Almost Home!!

It seems my goal of blogging once a week was an unrealistic goal, but better late than never, right?

The last couple weeks have been filled with some really good challenges for me, and some I have brought my A-game, and some I have not. We have one day left of classes and then Christmas Fair celebrations on Friday. After that, we head home for Christmas!! I am really looking forward to seeing people from home. Even more so to eating all that delicious food you can only find in the States!

Last week and this week, I have had to prove myself as a teacher, and to be honest, I don't know that I'm doing that. Some days look really positive, and others look like a train wreck. It's been hard for me to seek what God is doing in all of this, but nonetheless, if He gives me a chance to keep fighting for my place here, than I will do exactly that. I will not give up. If I do, it's not really giving up so much as it is God telling me He's got a different  path for me to take next. I am learning how to be okay with that. I am also learning it is normal to doubt your own abilities, which is why it is so critical to be in God's presence and keep seeking His will for my life. At this point, I am honestly at a place where I can genuinely say I love these kids with every fiber of my being, however, I do not love the job of teaching itself. There are several reasons for that. First, I am still a first year teacher and still figuring out what I'm doing. Second, I will always be learning, which means there will be plenty of room for mistakes, which I seem to be encountering a lot more often these days than not. Third, I've always had a passion for forming relationships with kids, but I've never been all that good at drawing a line in which we are friends, but I am firstly their teacher. That's probably the hardest thing for me. It's so hard because this job is a ministry in itself, whether you each at a Christian school or not. I like to take advantage of every opportunity I get to connect with my kids and help them learn something new about the Lord and His love for them.

Having said all that, I love it here. I really do. However, I am taking it all in with an open hand, trusting that at any moment He may call me away from here and on to something different. It will break my heart, for sure, but I know He does these things to strengthen us and to remind us HE is in control, not us. I hate accepting that sometimes, but then I also love it because it takes me off the hook from having to know what my future holds myself.

On a different note, the weather back home is ridiculous! I mean, we don't even get SNOW here, let alone weather below 40 degrees. The coldest it's been here is maybe 50 this year. Crazy. Illinois is supposed to get some really bad snow over the weekend, when I'm supposed to be flying home. If you could pray for the weather to be just good enough to still let me fly without any (or at least not many) delays.

Still clinging to this verse:
Philippians 1:6  " being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."